Tears of joy and tears of sorrow

So, I hadn't taken the time yet to post our wonderful news here. We are expecting Miracle Baby #3 for sometime around Valentine's Day 2009! I can't begin to describe my feelings of gratitude and humility for the blessing of being made whole--physically, this time, in addition to the many other ways up to this point--by a loving and merciful Heavenly Father. If you had talked to any medical doctor who had studied our case just 3 years ago, he or she would have told you it was scientifically impossible for us to have children without extensive treatments. We couldn't even use the regular in vitro process because we had little-to-no chance of it working. Instead, we had to go straight to the more complicated ICSI, which, even with its much higher statistical rate of success, didn't work the first time. And now, here we are with one ICSI miracle girl, one 'natural' miracle girl and another 'natural' pregnancy in full swing, just 3 years later. So I am crying tears of joy for these blessings.

I am also crying tears of sorrow today for Matt and Natalie. I won't tell their story here, except to say that if anyone deserves miracles, it is Matt and Natalie. I don't know any couple more humble, more loving, more patient, more grateful, more giving, and more deserving of every possible blessing. All I can say to myself as I mourn for their loss, and to them on this and every day that will follow, is that that same loving, perfect, and merciful Heavenly Father who knows the end from the beginning will make you whole in every way.